Big Day of Firsts

6/20/2011 10:06:00 PM Edit This 2 Comments »
Today was an exciting day for my little five year old. She had her first day of Pre-Kindergarten. Here she is proudly holding her lunch box ready for her next big adventure...
For those of you wondering what pre-kindergarten is - well it's summer school before kindergarten hence the pre. Her Montessori preschool ended May 28th and they took 3 weeks off (leaving Mommy scrambling to find daycare.) But today started their summer program. The kids who will be attending kindergarten next year get to move up to the K classroom for the summer. Lexie is so excited!
After her thrilling first day of big kid school (it's just in the room right next to her preschool class but for her it's the room where the big kids did all the cool stuff that she just wasn't old enough or big enough to do - but not today!) I whisked her off to the HIGH SCHOOL for practice of the finale for her big dance recital this weekend. Exciting times around here!!
This is Lexie and her best dancing buddy Olivia waiting in the audience for their dance to be called.
Next they had to wait outside the stage for their turn back stage. Funny thing is, the stage manager announced that all dancers 6 and under should hold hands when they walk on and off stage to make sure no one falls off. These two rule followers held hands the entire rehearsal except when they were on stage dancing. So cute!
 Waiting in the wings....
 Finally their big moment on stage!
Such little girls on such a big stage. All of this and it was just the finale rehearsal not their dance. Next we have dance rehearsal on stage, then pictures, then final dress rehearsal and finally TWO performances this weekend. (Is the week over yet?)
Here's a sneak preview.

Lexie's Pink Tree

6/19/2011 12:47:00 AM Edit This 3 Comments »
Every year I try to get a shot of Lexie in the cherry tree in our back yard when it blooms. This year it's clear that the tree is not the only thing in bloom. I can't believe how old Lexie looks!
This was the week before she turned 5. My sweet happy baby girl!

I feel so blessed to have this much beauty in my back yard even if it's just for a week or so.
And here is my 5 year old. Lexie insisted we take the "pink tree pictures" again after she turned 5. Such a difference!
This was just before the sun went down.
I had to go back and get the previous years just to remind myself that she really was a baby - once.
This was right around her 2nd birthday and she hadn't been home a year. At least I hadn't put her in the tree yet. Oh so cute!
 So sweet (I love her little bottom teeth.)
 This is right around 3 years old. First time in the tree and totally confident. That's my girl!
 Love that happy face!
Now this was last year a few weeks after her surgery. I didn't remember her being so skinny.
And so serious.
Oh here's my slightly happier girl.
But today is always the best day with Lexie.
She's as sweet and pretty as any cherry blossom!

Drum Roll Please....

5/24/2011 10:07:00 PM Edit This 14 Comments »
....I wrote a book.
Ever since Lexie started asking me for our story - The Mommy & Lexie Story - I've had the idea that I should make a book for her. So I did it....I wrote our story on a Blurb book and "published" it. I was very impressed with the free software Blurb provides you and the whole process was much easier that I thought it would be.
You can see if better if you make it full screen (Mom & Aunt Mary Lou click on the icon on the bottom right side of the box - next to where is says Blurb.) 
So here it is....



I know it's too wordy and childish but it really is pretty much how Lexie and I "tell" the story most every night. I have tried to shorten it but she always wants the long version. Oh my little detail girl. And sure there are several things I'd like to change about it but overall I'm pretty please with how it turned out. I gave a copy to my Mom on Mother's Day since she was with us for this adventure. Then Lexie and I read it to her pre-school class for her class birthday celebration.
She was so excited and proud to have a book all about her. I think it made her feel special instead of different since the class birthday celebration consists of the birthday girl or boy carrying the earth (aka a blow up globe) around the sun while the kids sing a sweet song about "the earth goes around the sun the sun..." Then they stop and the teacher tells something they did for each year they have gone around the sun while pointing it out on their "life" board.
For the first year, most kids parents tell about their baptisms, first steps, first words. Since Lexie's first year was spent alone in a baby house....well, instead we read our story.


Tomorrow, May 25th, is the fourth anniversary of the day Lexie was Born to Me. The day I met her and held her for the first time. Simply the best day of my life.
 
Happy Born to Me Day - Lexie!!

Lexie Turns 5 Today!

5/17/2011 11:39:00 PM Edit This 7 Comments »
That's right. Lexie turned five today. I can't believe my sweet baby is now an official little girl - ready to start Kindergarten next year. Wow where has the time gone?
I am so humbled to have been chosen by God to parent this amazing, intelligent, creative, imaginative, sweet child and on this, the 5th anniversary of her birth, I found myself thinking about the woman that gave birth to her. After all, I didn't know Lexie five years ago. She was just a prayer and a hope to me. But she was very real to the woman who carried her for 8 months and gave birth to her half way around the world five years ago today.
I'll be honest. I didn't think a lot about this woman the first year or so of my life with Lexie but when I did, I didn't really like her much. I mean what kind of woman could give birth to a child who only weighed 4 lbs 2 oz and didn't have a very good chance of living, sign away all rights to this child and then walk out the door, never to look back? That is exactly what happened 5 years ago today. But with time and reflection I now love this woman.....love her with all my heart because the first choice she made for Lexie was life. She clearly could have made another choice but she didn't. She gave Lexie life and I will be forever grateful to her for that. I've also had time to really consider what choices this woman in Kazakhstan had. I was told they believe she was Muslim and that it is against their religion for a single woman to raise a child on her own. So once she choose life for her child then she could have only done one of two things. She could have kept her and been ostracized by her family, church and community which clearly wouldn't have been a good life for her child - especially a daughter. Or give birth to her and walk away without looking back with the hope that someone would choose to adopt her. And because of the Kazakh "Family" laws back then (who knows what they will be when the country finally re-opens to international adoptions again) she would have had to never look back. Because if a birth mother or father or family member checks up on a child then that child comes off the eligibility list. Just a simple phone call and all her sacrifices would have been for nothing. So if she wanted her child to have the best chance at a good life then she would never be able to know what happened to her. Can you imagine how heartbreaking that would be? How tormenting to your soul? To know that if you truly love her, you can NEVER know what happened to her....NEVER know if she's still living in an institution with 100 other little lost souls or if some family has chosen to bring her into their home and call her daughter and love her like you wanted to or NEVER even know if she lived past her first full day of life. Those were the choices given to her by her country....give up her child with the smallest of hope that she'll have a better life or keep her and both of you might very well end up on the streets. No real choice at all.

I've had several people ask me why I didn't chose to adopt a child from the US. There are a number of personal reasons for it but the biggest reason was one of the choices we have in this country....an adoption plan. Clearly in Kazakhstan there is no such thing. Here in the US if a woman (or child) finds herself pregnant and she wants this child to live, then she has a number of options. Either keep that child to raise herself without any real negative social consequences. Don't get me wrong, I know it can't be easy to be young and raise a child own your own but here in the US there are a LOT of organizations and agencies that would help her and the child to at least meet their basic needs. Or if she decided the child would be better off being raised by other people, than she can make an adoption plan that best fits her wants and needs. She can keep as much contact with that child as both families agree to. She would always know who her child is and where she is and how she is doing. Lexie's birth mother will never have those answers, never know she made the right choice for her daughter, never know that Lexie is a beautiful, bright, happy child that can light up a room with her smile, has a memory that is astonishing and is so quick that she can apply what she knows in ways that leave me speechless, that Lexie will share her toys or food without prompting and gives the best hugs ever. She'll never know that Lexie has a huge imagination and believes in magic and happily ever after. And that Lexie got her Happily Ever After when I adopted her and brought her to a country that will give her choices and rights and a life her birth mother could only dream about. So I love this woman for giving my daughter....our daughter life and the opportunity to become a woman I can only imagine. And for giving me the privilege of raising her and loving her and sharing her life.

So today on the day of Lexie's birth, I thank the Lord for giving me my daughter through this selfless and loving woman. I pray that somehow the Lord will find a way for her to KNOW that Lexie is loved and cared for and will find peace with her decision. And I thank her for the beautiful daughter I call Lexie.
Happy 5th Birthday my beautiful Kazakh Princess!!

Bunny Prep

4/16/2011 10:40:00 PM Edit This 6 Comments »
It's that time of year again. Time to get the colored eggs and various bunnies and chicks out of their boxes to once again remember that......Christ Has Risen?! Sorry but I just don't see the connection. The jolly Saint who gives children presents on the day of the birth of the Christ Child now that makes a certain kind of sense but a bunny that lays colored eggs and leaves sweets for kids in a basket with fake grass....where did that come from? I am going to have to look that one up.
(just a random shot of Lexie at her dance class...too cute!)
Anyway - Lexie and I have done a couple of things to prep for the bunny. Last weekend we put a few dozen plastic eggs around the "gardens" in the front yard. My neighbor did it last year and Lexie begged me to do it to our yard this year. So I blatantly stole the idea but I should have just asked her what she did to make them not blow away. First we tried sand because they had this cool blue play sand at the store and I thought Lexie would have fun filling them.
She did but these silly eggs all have holes in them. How I didn't notice that through the years I'll never know. But after doing a dozen only to look down and see little blue piles forming under each egg was more than a little discouraging. Plus I didn't want the blue sand all over the yard. So I sent Lexie off to get some of the smaller rocks between the sidewalk and the road while I dumped the first dozen out and started over. This was the look I got when I told her the plan....
This worked well enough but I have to say last year the flowers and trees were already starting to bloom and I guess my neighbor had at least 100 eggs because it looked a little bare when we were done.
But Lexie liked it which is all that really matters. She even put some in the pots we'd planted earlier that day.
As for our next Easter project, well every year a local photographer has "Pics & Chicks" 10 days before Easter. It's where she has her studio set up in a cute spring setting along with live baby chicks and a bunny. Ever year I've managed to get Lexie there for a shot. You don't get them on a disc so I can't show you the pictures that are so sweet but here she is on the way. This year she told me she NEEDED a purse so the mouse Angelina Ballerina joined the chicks & bunny. Lexie told me this was her big girl look. I am in soooo much trouble.
After her pictures, I had to stop at my office and she saw these daffodils growing in the field next door. I've had to explain several times that flowers can only be pick if they are growing wild not in a pot or garden or even just in someones yard...sorry neighbor Bob. So when she saw these flowers she KNEW they were hers for the pickin'.
It's strange how the daffodil almost glows in this shot.
Funny thing is she didn't keep them. She gave them all to Ms Andrea the receptionist at my office who sometimes watches her for me. I thought for sure I'd be nursing them for a few days in a paper cup at home.
Well today it was time for the real prep. Arts & crafts....and you thought I was going to say color eggs didn't you? Nope, not yet anyway. First I let her glitter paint a bunny mask.
Then it was on to the main event.....a bunny house. Yup a gingerbread house decorated for the fluffy little guy. I picked up the kit last year on super clearance so I made it very clear to Lexie that she would not be eating this when it was done. I think she made up for it with the icing though. This girl takes her beater licking seriously!
While she was waiting for the icing to mix she sang "I'm a little tea pot."
Even without a video I think you can pretty much tell what she's doing.
She was actually going for a quick dip of the icing for her finale. She's getting sneaky as she gets older. But she did a lot of the frosting on the house and was very focused on her work.
But wait. She had to take another beater licking break.
Then it was down to the serious business of decorating. She was set on making the candies be in a pattern. She really work hard to get everything just the way she wanted it.
Soon it wasn't enough for her to just put on the candy and spread the icing. She wanted to try the icing bag. I figured it's her house so why not.
I love the evidence of her childish beater licking with the very focused look of concentration on her "big girl" task. Naturally she had to try the blue next. She was so proud of herself!
And again she amazes me with what she knows and how she can apply it. The picture on the box shows green grass around the house. In the instructions they suggested mixing green food coloring with shredded coconut for the grass. Since we just ate the last bag of coconut, ha (really do a lot of you just have shredded coconut on hand?) I found some green sprinkles we could put on over the remaining blue icing. Lexie said "hey we have blue and yellow which makes green so we can mix them to make the grass." Nice thinking!!
Finally we added the little bunnies...
and a bunch of "eggs"
WA-LA!! A bunny palace even the Easter Bunny himself would be proud to call his own.
 Since we used every piece of candy included in the kit (which was my goal...candy on the house not in the mouth) I had a hard time convincing her that it was yucky and she wouldn't want to eat it.
She was very sure she would love it and it would taste deeeelicious. Here she is pretending to be a bunny who should be able to eat it. How could I resist?
Well I did. The house is in tack and Lexie got to have chocolate yogurt for dessert so everyone is happy (especially Mommy since I won't have to make an emergency trip to the dentist this weekend.)

Happy Easter To You!!